the drama teacher at my school has me working overtime this week on costumes for the spring musical. This friday I have to meet with after school which sucks because we get out at 11:55 and I wanted to go home and rest before I had to come to the gallery. I don't know what J's schedule is like but hopefully I'll get to see him friday. On saturday I have to met the teacher again to go out shopping for the costumes..they design teams will be working from 9 am till 3 pm...hopefully I won't have to stay that long. I am at the gallery right now..I am going to go down to see J today..hopefully I'll be able to find him. I feel so lonely without him..so incomplete. Yesterday my art teacher said, " Your boyfriend is fine.." then the other girls standing around were agreeing with her...see J...lots of women/girls think that you are hot...they just don't flaut their affection

after J left today to go to work, I went out shopping to thirfttown. I found a few nice things that are somewhat summer-like (finding clothes to fit my victorian style is very hard I didn't have to meet the drama teacher today...tomorrow we are going to meet during 4th period to discuss costume ideas for the musical "Alice in Concert." Man..I can't believe I won the Renaissance award at the art reception on Saturday (I think that it should have went to Jessica Dore). I don't know why people like my work...maybe I am the only one who sees flaws in everything that envolves me. Shit..it's already 10 pm. I hope this week goes by fast..seeing J always is the highlight of the week. I need to get my pictures of J developed..I want some to carry around with me...those will be great for when I am lonely..which is whenever J and I are apart. Ahh..I need to read more in my Chemistry book then I can head off to bed...

I updated my links section

and I am loving every minute of it. I'll go back tomorrow though..I just was under the weather these past days. Tomorrow I have to go to the doctor to get my infected fingers checked out. Hopefully he'll prescribe me some cream that will heal them. My life is being put on hold for much longer than expected. I found out that I need to have an identification card to apply for a job...but in order to obtain that..I have to go down to dmv and fix my permit that has my incorrect birthday before I can get my I.D. This is very disappointing since most summer jobs are filled or will be within the next month. I have no idea where I am going to fill out and app. ...but now it has come down to me working for whom ever hires me first. Sadly I am extremely limited do to my age. If Starbucks on broadway is hiring...it's most likely that I can get a job there being that it's under the St. Hope Corporation. I could work in child care for the summer but I need to take a cpr class in order to apply. I am very stressed out...very impatient. I have so much time ahead of me...yet I really want to start gaining more control over my life..but it seems that once again, society/government has a way of bringing me down.

and I am very tired. I had to frame artwork at the gallery today...all of this week I have to go over there in preparation for the next exhibit featuring artwork by students at my high school.(Unfortunately I have to attend the opening night reception on Saturday).Two of my pieces were chosen for the show...neither are anything special...they most likely won't sell lol. It was so f***ing hot today!!..people thought I was insane for wearing all black...that's all I have though. I need to go shopping for summer clothes...~if only I had money~My birthday is coming up soon...I don't want anything but to spend time with J..he's all I need to be happy. Yesterday I went driving with my uncle. I almost got in an accident because I pulled out in an intersection without looking for oncoming cars...I need more practice but I feel that I am a fairly good driver. oooh..I almost forgot..I saw the most distrubing sight today. I was riding the bus and this ghetto chick got up to leave the bus and more than half of her ass was hanging out of this short ass dress that she had on. I was mortified...everyone on the bus was cracking jokes and laughing at her..one lady called her a "low-class ho"...the sad thing was that she actually thought she looked good..I hate sluts

~I am missing him like crazy~ Finally I write again

I chose not to go to school today...just wanted to take a day off. I will probably take the proficiency exam in June..if I pass I'll be finished with high school Luckily, I can get all of my UC required classes at the junior college. I set up a live journal account as well as a facethejury account..I'll put the sites up in my link section. I have to go to the gallery today :/ I am going downtown so I'll try to find J...hopefully I'll see him

Just put three more pictures in my gallery...I discovered that I am truly not photogenic. I hope that my face becomes more defined as I age..because my chubby checks are horrid. In some of my pics I look like my fat ex-boyfriend lol * Ooops..not supposed to put myself down*